I’m guessing the reason I like this quotation is that I have been frustrated lately. I am turning to more and more creative projects that look so fun (probably because I’m bored), but I don’t have the time to devote to them at this point in my motherhood journey. I’ve gotten some great encouragement from other parents lately that these early years are indeed precious and fleeting, which I recognize, but in the middle of this crazy time, it’s been very difficult for me to appreciate it as much as I probably should. I fully take in my daughter’s adorableness and growth and am constantly writing down funny things that come out of her mouth, etc. I chose “mindfulness” as my word of the year because I sincerely want to enjoy each moment. BUT, I miss “me time” so much. I’m sure I’m not alone in this.
I probably require more time to myself than the average person, something I took into account before getting pregnant. I know enough about myself to recognize that my daughter will be an “only” because I can’t handle the stimulation of more people in our house, more demands on my body and my time. Having another person with me all day is a challenge, let alone the little hummingbird of a person that is my sweet girl. I’m an introvert with what seems most of the time to be an extravert-type job.
“Stress is what happens when you want to do two things at the same time.” ~ Seth Godin
So I’m trying to fit in the projects where possible, sneak in quiet reading time where I can, and otherwise enjoy all the activity. “Life is a journey” reminds me that this part is just as important as all the others. “See the setbacks as giant leaps forward” teaches me that this too is a necessary growth experience. It’s so true that I “can’t see the bigger picture at the moment” and I have to accept that.
I want “to be present” and “mindful” and appreciate all the gifts that encompass my life. I am determined to get better at finding a quiet contentment with the way things are, no matter how they are.
Do any of you struggle with this?